Enlightenment.......

Makes me feel so alone to ponder how everytime I think about the universe, I only feel lonelier.
I'm beginning to think that maybe life isn't so worthless,

and then I remember the lack of viable reason for existance.
Then I return to being pissed again.


Adi wants to take me to lunch tuesday, ((tomorrow)) I turned him down and instead offered to let him hang out with me at the campus. I'm so scared of touching him. And letting him touch me. He knows everything about my body, and it makes me so afraid. Knowing that he's had me, I feel like I got duped.
He was never my boyfriend. He was only infatuated with my body.

This whole Mica thing is making me feel so wrong in my head.
I want to make everything better for her, but I can't.
I think I'm severely pissed at Rin. But I understand how she has feelings for other people.